2023.
terasa panjang. cepat la cepat waktu berlalu.
bawa semua kerisauan diri ini
ambil la semua kegelisahan ini
buang kan semua kesesakan ini.
baru February.
paling tak suka bila kita nak explain orang tanak dengar. paling tak suka bila kita cakap bukan macam tu tapi orang dah marah. paling tak suka bila kita nak bincang orang buat2 tak dengar. paling tak suka bila kita suarakan pendapat orang dah tinggi suara.
sebenarnya kena sedar diri kot. orang bukan buat gitu suka2. kita rasa kita paling tak suka. entah2 orang paling tak suka kita.
it was raining., pouring as my daughter said. cold, heavy air. it was comfortable yet wet. after a hot Americano, I try to hit the treadmill. hipotesis is 1 hour. but the end result only shows 10 minutes. yes. doing it in my kaftan feels legendary.
there are times
where it was all too stuffy
it was all too cloudy
and I was indeed a burden
but to let go wasn't an option
what else was left
only to bare what's coming
only to pretend it was all ok
Dengarkan doaku tuhan
Hatiku yang walang
Jiwaku yang parah
aku lemas dibirai pantai emosi
aku rapuh menunggu patah
aku lemah di lapangan perang
wahai tuhan pemilik Alam
dengarlah doaku
2023 came again.
a lot had happened. and here I am.
sakit itu ada bermacam rupa Dan Jenis. and I know I'm not well.
dada sesak. kepala senak. I can't help it. takutnya pada hari esok yang belum pasti.
Allah... kurniakan ku kesabaran.
I can do this. everything is gonna be alright.
these days demam berganti2. high fever. stuffy nose, slight batuk, fatigue, loss appetite.
berganti2 anak demam. and after 2 weeks it's recurring
bila anak2 sakit begini. rasa rindu, kehilangan tu plg terasa. membuak2. rasa macam nak pecah kepala.
ma .. Im alone ma. I need you more than ever.
its 2022 guys.
nope. not getting older. but getting wiser too hopefully.
a lot had happened. do you know about it?
ma and bak had already started their journey to The afterlife.
so, Here am i. getting ready.
