Friday morning

 it was raining., pouring as my daughter said. cold, heavy air. it was comfortable yet wet. after a hot Americano, I try to hit the treadmill. hipotesis is 1 hour. but the end result only shows 10 minutes. yes. doing it in my kaftan feels legendary. 

it was that time

 there are times 

where it was all too stuffy

it was all too cloudy

and I was indeed a burden

but to let go wasn't an option

what else was left

only to bare what's coming

only to pretend it was all ok

akhirnya

 

tuhan.. dengarkan doaku

 Dengarkan doaku tuhan

Hatiku yang walang

Jiwaku yang parah

aku lemas dibirai pantai emosi

aku rapuh menunggu patah

aku lemah di lapangan perang

wahai tuhan pemilik Alam

dengarlah doaku

tahun baru

 2023 came again. 

a lot had happened. and here I am. 

sakit itu ada bermacam rupa Dan Jenis. and I know I'm not well. 

dada sesak. kepala senak. I can't help it. takutnya pada hari esok yang belum pasti. 

Allah... kurniakan ku kesabaran.

I can do this. everything is gonna be alright.

musim influenza like illness

 these days demam berganti2. high fever. stuffy nose, slight batuk, fatigue, loss appetite.

berganti2 anak demam. and after 2 weeks it's recurring

 bila anak2 sakit begini. rasa rindu, kehilangan tu plg terasa. membuak2. rasa macam nak pecah kepala. 

ma .. Im alone ma. I need you more than ever. 

hello there

 its 2022 guys. 

nope. not getting older. but getting wiser too hopefully.

a lot had happened. do you know about it? 

ma and bak had already started their journey to The afterlife. 

so, Here am i. getting ready.