Tuesday, November 20, 2018

Cerita semalam.

Ini cerita semalam.
Alkisah pergi ke Billion.
Jalan konfiden. Langkah laju, kemas, tepat. 
Tapi mata pandang adik pegang penyapu. 
"Ya Allah..kak..."
Pastu kami gelak sampai Tak kuar suara. 
Mata melilau tgk atas. Cuak kot Ada CCTV.


Pernah Kau rasa penat? Sampai rasa mahu lari ke hutan?
Aku pernah. Beberapa Kali. Meltdown bila Tali terputus.
Kau tahu apa rasa jadi aku? Semua orang mahu aku kuat. Well kuat itu subjective kot.

Aku perasaan nya sekarang
Rasa seperti keseorangan
Hilang pegangan yang selama ini aku rasa Ada.
Sepertinya dunia berkecai seribu
Hati jadi debu kaca yang Tak mungkin bercantum. Dimana semua yang aku Ada. Hilang.

Hai blog, lama Tak jumpa. Aku sedang sakit. Sakit amat. Sakit dalam dada. Kau tahu Tak? Kenapa Tak Tanya kabar yer. Seperti selalu...

Aku...sedih. sentiasa kesedihan. Sentiasa sedih. Dunia...apa lagi yg Kau mahu.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

salah dan salah

   when you are wronged
you have been wronged
be sillence
may it to friends
talk.tell.but not yell


Friday, March 17, 2017

fight that dam* virus

last week all 3 were down due to fever. yasmin was complaining of pain in her mouth. i try to look for ulser inside her mouth. but she specifically told me that it hurts when she swallow her food. and...there they were. ULSERS on the throat. after 2 days nuha gto sudden fever. she doesnt complain anything about pain but her constant request of cold water made me wonder. and yes i spotted ULSERS on her throat as well. after a few days it was umars turn. it was heart breaking to see him not being able to drink anything and his screaming when he tried to swallowed anything. and the drooling too. so, being paranoid as me, i started googling. and found this


Herpangina is a common childhood illness caused by a virus. It is characterized by small, blister-like ulcers on the roof of the mouth and in the back of the throat. The infection may also cause a sudden fever, sore throat, headache, and neck pain.
Herpangina is similar to hand-foot-mouth disease (HFM), another type of viral infection that commonly affects children. Both conditions are caused by enteroviruses. Enteroviruses are a group of viruses that typically affect the gastrointestinal tract but sometimes spread to other parts of the body. Normally, the body’s immune system produces antibodies to fight off infection. Antibodies are proteins that recognize and destroy harmful substances, such as viruses and bacteria. However, infants and young children are less likely to have the appropriate antibodies because they haven’t developed them yet. This makes them more susceptible to enteroviruses.
The groups of viruses that cause herpangina are very contagious. Luckily, the symptoms are treatable and usually clear up within seven to 10 days.

What Are the Symptoms of Herpangina?

The symptoms of herpangina vary from person to person, but can include:
  • sudden onset of fever
  • sore throat
  • headache
  • neck pain
  • swollen lymph glands
  • difficulty in swallowing
  • loss of appetite
  • drooling (in infants)
  • vomiting (in infants)
Small ulcers in the back of the mouth and throat begin to appear about two days after the initial infection. They tend to be light gray and often have a red border. The ulcers usually heal within seven days.

basically, all of them had that symptoms. so, to be sure we all go to the peads and guess what he said. "its Herpangina". well.... so long.....

Friday, March 10, 2017

a week without proper sleep

its been a hectic week. starting with yasmin fever then nuha and now umar.
.......bored eh? well thats my life for short and i'm loving it.

Monday, March 6, 2017


Simpati hanya ada pada bibir mulut. Benar, mydah meluahkan. Mudah menyatakan. 
Sabar, senang menyuruh. Sedap didengar.
Tunggu, boleh dilihat. Rancak diperkata.
Are we really the person we are talking about? Why must jugde if you dont know. Why must punish if you are not sure. 

Saturday, March 4, 2017

Weekend mommy's style

Today we have to visits to do.  The ortho and the dentist. The first trip was the dentist. Dentist coudnt do the filing on yasmin tooth because it was too deep but too small. Couldn't simply take it out. Apparently, gigi geraham can only be removed at the age of 10. - solution - berus gigi every after meal and consume oral meds as pain killer hurm
.big no if not too muchπŸ™…. Or... Second opinion. So we choose to have the second opinion.
Next is the ortho. Went there at 12 but the doc wasnt in. He was on the OT. So we went out for lunch and came back after. It took only few minutes . Dic said ok. A few bend after broken bones is fine. Try to make fist. Ask us to give it until 6mths.
Summing up. Yasmin didn't get on her histerical mood even she looks so nervous. Even asked me to take photographs of her.
*But nuha manage to spill the whole laici water in the clinic. Sooo much for not spoiling my good image. Hahahah