Regrets

It's personal. It's intimate. It's negative if you want to look at it. Things that always get wrong no matter how you look at it. And you ended up saying something awful and infuriating.
Playing blaming games are easy. Finger pointing are more easier. It's how you handle it matter the most. And for most of the time. It wasn't good.

Sometimes we utter things we weren't supposed to. Then we regret it.
But things got complicated when it comes to it. Pressured and squashed in between. There are times I regret thing I've said. Always I wished I wouldn't have said it.

....., by swallowing evil word unsaid, no one has ever hurt his stomach.

Why calling letters always caught my attention.

When I was once a little girl. I always envy my friends who were able to go classes. Some of my friends would tell stories of what they learnt at those classes. Gymnastics, mandarin language, English class, chess, swimming, arts.

And my inside was swirling and torn. How I wish i had that chances too. It would be so nice.

Since then, when I was still in Uni. I love going to seminars, colloquium, courses,extra curricular. I like to be with friends, being in class, in Hall or whatever. I loves the vibe that the speaker brought. I guess that really made me who I am today.

Now that I have kids, still i love seeing my kids to go to classes. but, circumstances are..kids are not mine alone. But hey, kelas mengaji also one of it right. 

Hoping and still, my kids wouldn't feel what I feel. For I have done my best in my capacity to give it all to you.